Broken Strings

Captain Cho turns 23

2011-02-03T22:26:00.003+08:00

Birthday boy tweeted just now. :')

Happy 23rd Birthday, Captain Cho.
i've said all the things that i needed and yeah. i love you.

p.s) i miss you, you chubby little thing.

LIFE IS COMPLETE.

2011-01-31T21:18:00.004+08:00

People are busy with their life; boyfriends, girlfriends, preparation for marriage/engagement and what am I doing?

Falling in love with someone I could never possibly have. But that's okay, it doesn't hurt me one bit because I know that no matter how much I love this kid, there is no way he'll break my heart. Sure, he's surrounded by girls here and there, (crazy, sick in the brains ones) and I'll get jealous and curse and swear at him on Twitter but that's part of his job. :)

Meeting him for the first time was like a bride waiting for get married to her groom. No, I did not get to touch his hand nor take a decent photo of him but just to see him THAT close (on the 2nd day), it was enough. I'm contented, honestly.

I made a mistake. I thought he was a brat towards his fans judging from this UFO replies and all but he proved me wrong. He was a total sweetheart to his fans and only a brat to his Hyungs.

Thank you Genie for sticking through with me, thank you Fid and Nurul for always being there, thank you to all three of you for going through the shits, tears, heartache with me just so that Genie and my dream could come true, thank you Mama and Abang for being understanding towards my love for kpop, thank you Mama for accepting Kyuhyun (she liked the fancam of Kyu i posted on FB!), thank you sgRITS for making not only mine but thousands of fangirls dream come true, thank you God for letting me exist until today just so that I could meet him and lastly, thank you Cho Kyuhyun... for everything.

Exactly, the lyrics you sang were "How can I stop loving you? Tonight, you should understand, it's hard to end this love." EXACTLY.

You tell me how.

it's almost time.

2011-01-25T14:30:00.001+08:00

Four days down till I become one of the most happiest girl.

This kid has been there for the past one and a half years, coming close to 2 years soon. The one that I would look for when I need a good cry or laugh, the voice that lullabies me to sleep and the gorgeous face is just a bonus. Thank you, Cho Kyuhyun… for being there when I almost gave up on everything.

Yes, you can call me delusional but you have no idea how this kid made an impact in my life.

I hope I can stay sane enough for this weekend and I really do hope that the pain that I have to go through just to get the tickets would be worth tear drop.

I love you, Cho.

first post on 2011

2011-01-13T23:45:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year, everyone. Yes, it’s kind of late to be updating it now but better late than never, right?
So, once again… a new year starts and like everyone else, I hope for the best this year. So far, 2010 has been great and though I have a few major and minor break down, I guess that’s part of life. (:

Thank you, 2010 for being a great one for me. Thank you for the joy and sad moments, for the new people that I’ve met, for the old friends that I’ve found, for the friendship that was mended and some, broken.

In 2011, I’ve bigger responsibilities to handle – being a teacher and a student at the same time is never an easy job. I lack of sleep, I’m constantly tired but my kids are my sunshine. They are the ones who’d put the smile on my face.

And also, something big is happening on 29th and 30th January; I just hope I have enough strength to carry own my life as per normal after that because I know for sure, things would change. I'm just not ready for that.

2011, please be kind to me and my loved ones. (:

p/s: it's gg to be 14th January soon; Happy 20th Birthday, Nazri - ILYmm. :)
p/p/s: GFs, i miss you girls already. ):

did anyone miss me? :/

2010-11-28T20:25:00.002+08:00

Life has been pretty busy lately. I don't have the time to blog like I used to but pfft, who cares - no one reads anymore. I've got 3 students portfolio to do, 2 assignments due and 1 major exam in December - where's my social life? Don't bother asking.

Oh don't get me wrong - I'm not complaining; in fact... I'm enjoying life as it is. It's just frustrating how I've to juggle between work and school - that I've to sacrifice meetups with my friends. At times, believe me... I am TOO tired to even go out from my room that I just laze in bed all day. So yes, social life is totally nada.

I miss my friends; esp NZMRN.
I miss hanging out and being carefree.
I miss myself.

Perhaps I should spend more time with myself and start making myself happy rather than always trying to make pple happy when they don't even appreciate it. Sometimes, it's silly to lose a friendship over something minor but then again, choices were made and choices have consequences.

Ah, don't mind me - it's been a while since I ranted.

I want December to come fast. I'll be going to 2AM's Autograph Session on 2nd Dec, MNET Ultimate Live on 4th Dec and then, mug my ass off for 23rd Dec - which is my exam and I hope I get to spend my 20th with my favourite people. Oh and yes, I got tickets to SS3 so yay me! I'll be meeting the love of my life (FINALLY!), soon enough.

See, what's not to be happy about? Stop the hatred and start loving.

Till then, toodles. /waves

be right back

2010-11-11T23:47:00.001+08:00

i promise... i'll update during the weekends.
i'm busy.

Arrow

2010-10-31T17:17:00.004+08:00

Fine, finally updating my blog.

Things happened, so... meh, I'm not going to dwell on it. KPN was great, I enjoyed myself so much till I lost my voice and sanity. Fan account would be done another day. But... Kim Jonghyun wasn't there. Yes, I cried like there's no tmr after the concert at Fid's crib so that's that. And ho, *throws confetti*, he's now dating his ideal girl, Shin Sekyung. No, don't get me wrong. I was taken aback by the news on Wednesday but I'm happy for him really... when half of my tlist were going crazy and some even though I might do something stupid. HUH, WHAT. -___________-"

Anyway, I've pretty much gotten over it so meh, it doesn't really bother me much. Like hi, I've been thru worst than this, IRL experience. Pffft. But it bothers me that Jjong's not being himself now. ):

Right... nevermind...

We had Halloween celebration in school, last Friday. My kids were adorable, IDEK. :) I was stuffed with candies and chocolates, IDEK how many I already ate. T.T I'm gonna stuff myself with more candies on Monday at work.

/head desk/ I've an assignment to be handed in on Tuesday and I've not started on it yet. Urgh. I shall start it, perhaps later, probably around 7pm.

I love this song but it isn’t the same without Jjong. But Taemin… I’m so proud of him for taking over Jjong’s high note at 3:13. I feel like crying each time I listen to Taemin's high note... that kid has no idea how proud we all are of him.

And you, Kim Jonghyun… please be strong and cheer up. It hurts us seeing you this way. ): Have a good rest.

November, please let it be a good month for all of us.

-

2010-10-30T10:34:00.001+08:00

will update later, too many things are happening right now.
i need time...

for myself.

hang on...

2010-10-24T22:45:00.002+08:00

I'm going to remember 231010 for the rest of my life,
though... it'd be better if you were there.
I miss you, so come back soon.

Waiting.

i've faith that he'll come...

2010-10-17T10:21:00.002+08:00

A pissed NRZ is a... non-pretty NRZ, mkay.

Jjong was pushed in Indo by fans thus, he twisted his ankle, was being piggybacked by his manager at Indo Airport and not being able to come to Singapore for KPN next week...

DO YOU WANT ME TO KEEEEL A BEEETCH?!

JBSFJSBNFSJBG! For the past few days, I've been raging about this. But... ^____^ he'll come... i'm very sure he will. (: Because…

just look at this performance yesterday – one of the best.

I really really really like 00:37 so much. /bias much?/ ^^

OH EMM GEE, 6… six more frigging days to KPN, to meeting these boys again. Call me crazy but I’m not ready. :/

TEN OCTOBER TWENTY TEN

2010-10-10T15:40:00.002+08:00

It's 10 October 2010 today.
The date is beautiful... 101010. :)

you you you, finally back from Italy. /buttdance

I'm so tired tired tired from work and school. Fever and flu finally went away but the headaches keep coming back. DNL, DNW. D: The kids in school were behaving pretty well this week so, I've no complaints. Anyhoo, it's 13 more days to KPN. Sexcited or notttttt~ ^^ I know I am. HEHEEEE.

The girls look amazingly adorable and Choi Minho, you're forever good looking laa Dude. XD

"If you gather up all the miracles in the world, you're the beginning and the end..." :)

p/s: i don't... yknow? i know limits.
p/p/s: just in case i can't be online tmr, Happy 21st Birthday Henry Lau.

first it shatters.

2010-10-07T07:31:00.002+08:00

I did what I had to do. Not because I want to, but because I HAVE to. There's a huge difference… I’m bruised but I’ll fix myself up pretty quickly because I’m already immune to this. So don’t worry… I just need time. TIME – for now, I just want it to go by quickly. For now, help me by going away. Really, it’d help.

Bella… you really reflect me. In so many ways.

And you - my love, come home soon. Though I know you’re there, I still miss your presence.

p/s: Haven't I always loved you?

no one woke me up when Sept ended...

2010-10-03T21:39:00.003+08:00

Hello October.

I'm good at handling my feelings nowadays. Things have not been easy but I'm sure I'll be just fine.

My favourite boys ComeBack performances were on the same day. Double Dosage of goodness, yes but it's not good for the heart. I screamed, spazzed and cried so hard watching their performances till my head hurts. Pfft. BEAST's comeback perf of BREATHE was really breathtaking. And to sums it all up, SHINee's HELLO was just NSDGDTREUIDHFGJDGN! /headbangs and dies

- am too lazy to insert YT links to BEAST and SHINee performances. T.T -

Oh Oh Oh! I FINALLY watched Lagenda Budak Setan and OMG, I cried in Fid's room like there's no tmr... it was an emotionally roller coaster ride for me, idk why. Everything that happened in that movie, I could somehow relate to it in a way and trust me, though I was spazzing over how Farid Kamil and Lisa Surihani looks so so so good together, half of the time, I was crying my heart out and cursing like crazy. :/ ACCK, Farid Kamil's acting never fails to surprise me. (: Hur, who said I only spazz over Korean boys? /flicks hair

And I'm so hoping that whatever happened in that movie - it won't happen in real life, for me. I could never take such a blow.

What else?

OH! Hurrrr, Kyuhyun is having fun in Italy............ /butthurt......

Hai SHINee boys, please please please perform LUCIFER, HELLO and QUASIMODO / ONE during KPN - I swear I'll love you boys forever...

20 more days till I get to see you again... /heart flutters

“I’ll be taking you, girl I know without you… I miss you…”

G.NA's babygirl

2010-09-30T21:37:00.003+08:00

OMG. Look what I have here~ :D
YES, G.NA's Autograph. /dies/
So I went to her fansign on Wednesday right after work, cabbed down to Bugis because Nurul was already panicking that I couldnt be there on time and ho, luck was on my side I guess, I got a cab as soon as I got out from my workplace and it took me only 4 minutes to reach Bugis. :D We were soooooo near the stage like ZOMG kay.

And...she arrived, she sang Supa Solo, we sang a birthday song for her and our dear sweet G.NA cried. She said she was touched to see alot of fans turn up because she didn't expect to see a huge crowd. Aww... you see, how can I not love her when she's so humble. And to think that SG is the first country that she's ever been to for her album promotion - she deserves the love. :D

Off we went on stage for the autograph session and holy mama cow~ G.NA was so nice and sweet to all her fans! Someone shouted, "G.NA neomu yeppeo!" and she said, "aww, thank you~ you too!" ZOMG! She acknowledges fanboys and the boys went crazy! So, we gave our albums to her and there was a minute or so for us to interact with her while waiting for her to sign the albums and I said this,

"OMG, Unnie! G.NA Unnie! You're so pretty! You're so gorgeous~! Can you please date Doojoon? Pleaseeee~~ OMGGGG! Come back to Singapore okay~"

-.- I know, I'm such a dork. Pfft. Anyway, after receiving back my album, I said, "Thank you Unnie! I love you!!!" while grinning like an idiot and all I heard her say was this, "I love you too!"

FML, SHE SAID ILYT OKAY. FML!!! /dies

Wait, that's not the end. ^_^

My legs were wobbling when I joined the rest and I was like "OMGGG! SHE SAID SHE LOVES ME!!! SHE SAID I LOVE YOU TOO TO ME! OMGGG!!!" and Shermin and Vivian came down and said this, "OMG NURUZ! SHE CALLED YOU BABE! SHE SAID "THANK YOU BABE, I LOVE YOU TOO" TO YOU! OMGGGGG!!!"

And... well, my reaction was... "OMFGOMFGOFMGOMFG! SHE CALLED ME BABE?! SHE CALLED ME BABE?!!!! BABE???!!!" I practically shrieked in a high pitch voice.

HOLYSHIT, I DIDNT HEAR THAT OKAY. ALL I HEARD WAS "I LOVE YOU TOO" and I was already in Heaven and now they said she called me "BABE". If she were to call me, "BABYGIRL", I'd died at that spot. ;_; FML, if Doojoon were to say THAT to me when he signed my album, I would have died months ago.

HURRRRR. G.NA unnie, please come back to Singapore. Bring BEAST with you and have a special stage together. I miss you already. G.NA is so gorgeous, IDEK... I really look up to her in a way. Her songs gave me strength to lead my life as per normal - she has this "I'm single and I rock" attitude that makes me love her so much.

I'm G.NA's Babygirl and nothing else matters. :D

___________________

OMFG. OMFG. SHINee's HELLO is so..... BNJSFKBSJFSIFUHSUISJFNS! /bites Jonghyun!

the three Ls

2010-09-25T20:47:00.005+08:00

the three Ls in life: Live. Love. Let go.

I lied to you yesternight, I didn't want you to know how I really feel. I tell you what you wanted to hear. I'm good at pretending that I don't care - through practice. This is a good lie - a lie that should stay this way till whenever. ~~You don't read my blog; you wouldn't know about this.~~

Someone said I still look beautiful - in fact, more beautiful than a few years ago. TYSM :) Koalas... I still want to meet them badly, don't ask why. Kyu, he's been giving much love by tweeting - I'm contented. If there's one thing I'm good at, it'd be the way I pretend it doesn't matter anymore when deep down, it does.

JALAN RAYA WITH THE GENG TMR - i'll be in Nadd's car. (L)

HATE? okay.

2010-09-20T00:39:00.002+08:00

Wow. I didn't do anything to deserve this shit or hatred, esp from you.
Don't... do not... make me hate.

Because the last thing I ever want to do.

officially missing

2010-09-19T20:06:00.004+08:00

I've to turn down a few Raya invitations due to my busy schedule. Most of the invites are on 25th Sept and 2nd Oct and unfortunately, I'm working on those days. I feel bad though but /shrugs/... Tmr is already Monday again and I end work at 7.30pm for this month. Ah, it's okay though - I'm ending early in Oct, as early as 4pm. (:

I was just 17 back then okay, so beautiful IDEK. ;_;

How much I miss life in ITE back then. I miss the lecture halls, the labs, the lecturers, the cafes, the school uniform, the labcoat and most importantly, I miss how happy I was back then. Really, life was so much happier back then eventhough I was still a student. I didn't have to think about paying bills, doing shitload ass 2k words assignments and etc... I was just me, with my girlfriends around. Girlfriends were my source of happiness and I spent 5 days a week with them - just imagine how happy I was. As soon as we graduated, we hardly meet due to busy schedules.

God knows how much I miss them, everyday.

Above all, I miss being happy and carefree. I'm happy now, of course... but it's just not the same anymore but still, Alhamdulillah for everything. I have my family, my girlfriends, my KPOP family, my kids at work and three boys to love (hehe~) - I'm contented. And to ask for anything more would be greedy. :)

p/s: I miss Azhari and Fadhuli. It's been a while since we talked. ):

i've been busy, okay? okay.

2010-09-18T23:40:00.000+08:00

Uh yes, it’s been a long time since I post a picture of myself. Well, say hi to my pretty and long fingers and... also to Myra. Heh.

WORK WORK WORK. SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL. I’m so busy and tired that I don’t reply to messages at times nor do I go online anymore. I know, sad life right? Meh. Kids at work has been nothing but darlings but at times, they do get on my nerves and just a simple, “Teacher Nuruz, are you angry? Don’t be angry. Sayang sayang…” and they’ll kiss my cheeks – my anger would go away. Hur, smart kids. They know my weak points.

Weird, I had a dream that I left everyone in Singapore and went to Australia for studies, only to come back 3 years later. I only kept close contacts with a few pple. IDK, sometimes I wish it really did happen. I just want to get away for a while to some country alone and come back after a loooooong break. That'd be nice. At least it'd keep my mind off certain things. Don’t ask me why Australia… I just want to meet Koalas badly. ):

OH OH OH! My BB tweeted VERY early in the morning. YAH, you don't know how to sleep huh? And look, my BB with his chu face. Oh and Donghae looks so handsome here. ^_^

Babyyyy, mcm mane I tak sayanggggg you? /gets bricked by many.
I rather give my love and attention to that brat with the idiotic face in that photo. HAWHAWHAW.

Things would get better... they usually do. :)
I’m a forgiving person but that doesn’t mean you can step over my head, mister. (: Good luck.

p/s: It’s the 18th – which also means…….. three more months to my 20th and bye-bye teenage years. ZOMG, DNW.

Go Away

2010-09-13T00:51:00.002+08:00

I'm just disappointed...
Too disappointed that all I could do was to curl myself up in a ball and cry.

Don't worry about me and go away...

Unexplained. IDK. /shrugs

AidilFitri 2010 - with love.

2010-09-09T23:25:00.002+08:00

To my beloved friends and family,

I'm only human, I make mistakes. I say things that I don't mean, I do things without thinking twice at times, I lose my temper whenever my tolerance goes beyond the limit, I hurt people in ways I never thought I would, and beyond everything... I am not perfect.

Forgive me for my mistakes - that's all I'm asking for this Hari Raya.

And to people who might have done wrong to me or hurt me in any ways, I forgive you. Though it might take me a while to forget, I do forgive - no matter how bad the mistake is, no matter how much this heart was bruised. Everyone makes mistake... and it's only human to forgive and forget. No matter who you are in my life, friends or foe - every single person matters. Forgiving makes one a beautiful person.

I forgive because I love.

Alhamdulillah, Ramadhan passed by smoothly though it was a lil challenging. It's crazy how fast time passes by and now, we're already halfway through 2010 - already celebrating Hari Raya tmr. TBH, IDK what's in store tmr for the family. No, my family is different from most families. It's been two years since I last visited my grandparents from Dad's side - tbh, I just don't want to see faces that I don't want to see. Well, that aside...

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin, everyone. Have a blissful Syawal and may God bless each and everyone of you.

himnae~

2010-09-09T05:08:00.002+08:00

Sleepless nights...

Sometimes I wish people would try being in my position for once and understand the emotions that has been running up and down in my life. It's not easy... It's like having a battle with yourself.

I'm tired...

what we have to go through -.-

2010-09-07T07:47:00.003+08:00

Holyshit.
Tickets to KPOP Night Concert 2010 is now in my hands...
9 of them... mine, Nurul, Fid, Fid's cousin, Fid's 2 friends, Nad, Nad's friend and my brother.

This is the result of overnighting and queing for 25 hours - Nad's perserverance to stand in the queue for 6 and a half hours while I waited for her downstairs, worrying almost crying every minute. Shitty way of handling a crowd. Pfft. They only allowed one person to queue for the tickets, no friends are allowed to stay around. The eff. Really, the way they managed crowd control sucks. The way they handled the situation was okay but really, last minute information isn't gg to make a lot of people happy.

Though we got the tickets, I'm pissed at those who didn't queue for this. FU, we went through sweat and tears for this and there you are, bragging that you got a ticket when you weren't even at 313@Somerset in the first place. Eventhough Nurul and my brother didn't queue or overnight for this, they bothered to at least come down to 313 and check on us.

Ah, whatever, we got the tickets with our effort. And ProofLabel, don’t you DARE touch Cube Entertainment. If this is how you’re gg to handle a KPOP event, I suggest, DON’T.

On the other hand, I GET TO MEET KIM JONGHYUN AGAIN. :D Okay, fine this time, I’ll blind my eyes for the other four and concentrate on that Jongyeon. Kekekeke. ACK, OMG. I CAN’T WAIT, IDEK. JONGHYUNNNNN!

I am so so so praying that they’ll be singing Quasimodo on that day so that I can cry my heart out when Jjong reach his high note in 2:43.

"I need you, oh no~~~
I'm trying dying crying for you baby..."

;_____; I swear my heart would stop beating at that very moment.
And err, Jjong... why so angry during a ballad song?! /kicks you. ^^

Happy Teachers' Day :)

2010-09-01T16:33:00.002+08:00

Happy Teachers' Day to me! :D my first Teachers' Day celebration as a teacher and I got these from my kids. :D Those rascals... I didn't know my PG 1 kids did a card for me since I'm with them 24/7 but my guess, they did it on Friday when I wasn't in school. I got a real flower from Joel, chocolates, cards, a cute plush rabbit and etc... but what I love the most were the hugs and kisses from the kids.

I may not be the best teacher, but I do love my kids. I have 8 kids to bath, to milk, to put to sleep, to teach, to love - it's tiring but I'd give anything to make them happy because they are the ones who slowly healed me.

I do get angry, I do have my temper, I do scold them but whenever I do that, they'd be "Why are you angry, Teacher Nuruz? I don't want to make you angry." - imagine, a 2 year old saying this to me.

And my day would be a great one just by seeing them smile and calling me, "Teacher Nuruz."

To all my past ex-teachers and lectures - thank you for teaching me during my school years and of course, to my mother - thank you for teaching me about life, what's right and wrong and for teaching me to stay strong despite everything.

when PMS goes round and around

2010-08-29T15:42:00.003+08:00

Well, hi. I'm in a pretty sucky mood right now. PMS is taking over and yea, that might explain the moodswings. So, first time stepping to the Bazaar yesternight and dear God, what an eye sore. I saw that person and my mood totally went down. I don't give a damn even if he did saw me glaring at him, he deserved it.

And the eff? LUCIFER was playing at the Bazaar?! I was crossing the road when I heard a familiar tune that made me nearly stopped in the middle of the road. My instant reaction was this -> " :O WTF?!" I wasn't even spazzing, I was swearing. I still can't comprehend Lucifer and Geylang together. I'm sorry for being a stereotype person but I don't see KPOP as a trend like how people are treating it nowadays.

Korean Pop Night Concert 2010 on 23rd OCT.

FUFUFU - SHINee(!!!), SNSD(!!!), Big Bang, Infinite, DNA and FTIsland are scheduled for KPOP Fest Night in SG. HOLYMACARONI, two SMTown family are going to be here. Rumoured pricing for VIP tickets are $270. I'm ditching everything else to get the VIP tickets.

And I'm marking my calendar on the 29th of January 2011 :)

p/s: don't compliment yourself, boy.

2 Years and counting

2010-08-25T07:14:00.002+08:00

2 YEARS since that day and I'm still standing tall. I survived the shits you put me through. So, who you're calling weak?

And this has been on repeat.

Do you remember that day, the day when we met for the first time?
I still remember it, those words that you promised...
You said you'd care and protect me and only me,
You said you don't love anyone but me,
I believed you, I believed your lies...

This is one of the rare moments when everything comes back.

HAPPY (:

2010-08-22T21:28:00.004+08:00

My favourite boy tweeted today. ^___^v I'm LOL-ing over the fact that he uses "lol" - it's RARE to see Koreans using acronyms okay. ^^

Yesterday was SMTown Live 2010 in Seoul - I was a butthurt SMTown stan last night okay, all I could rely on was tweets. In summary, seeing the SM Family happy makes me happy. :)

My favourite part of the 7 hours long concert - SeoKyu duet. I ship them hardcore, IDEK.

I had to bite my pillow from squealing when it came to 1:57 onwards. These two looks so perfect together... and when he took her hand at 2:04, I am one happy fangirl. :D LOL, no... I'm not even jealous. I WANT them to date for real. ^^

a great morning

2010-08-17T06:48:00.002+08:00

The first thing I saw on my Twitter timeline when I woke up was this. It certainly made my morning a great one. And my heart... is still going dugeun dugeun~

Hi Handsome, I love you, okay? ^^

SS3Seoul + FARID KAMIL :D

2010-08-15T20:06:00.003+08:00

Super Show 3 in Seoul just ended today.
I got a chance to listen to them Live from Seoul itself yesterday though fans were constantly screaming but I could hear the boys quite clearly. Trust me, I was already to the point of pulling my hair after every song just by listening to them Live - I really don't know what would happen to me when I go for SS3 next year. I held back my tears when they sang ballads but when KRY + MinHae sang "In My Dream", I broke down. ;__;

Why am I such a cry baby? /headdesk

you, you, you! I can't wait to see you in January 2011. I don't care even if the tickets would cost me a bomb - you're coming here and I'm gg to see you. Not even monkeys or donkeys can stop me. You broke my heart once on 6th June 10 when you didn't come to SG; you're not gg to break my heart again.

OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD!!!
Okay, ignore the "Cho Kyuhyun" and "Choi Minho" accounts- obviously that's fake but LOOK WHO ACCEPTED MY FRIEND REQUEST!

FUFUFUFU. THAT account is not fake for sure. ^^ ZOMG, people who read my blog since last time should know how crazy I was for Farid Kamil back then. JHASFBJBGAJG! ;_____;

Okay, why do I want to meet Farid Kamil in real life? Fid already meet him once and got his autograph. :O

/flailing/ Is this the reality that I wanted? YES! :D

again.

2010-08-13T05:12:00.002+08:00

He did it again.
How many times already?
You're lucky ILY.

nth else

2010-08-11T01:10:00.002+08:00

you have no idea how much i love you that i just brushed aside the fact that your actions hurt me, two days in a row. to others, it may seem silly and absurd that i'm overly sensitive about this issue but little did they know how much i trusted you that you'd never do anything that might hurt me in anyway.

but i love you, that's all that matters.

the 100th post

2010-08-09T08:55:00.001+08:00

I'm jealous. Yes, but not angry. And I'm happy for you too.
Tell me being jealous is a crime, cos if it is, I've landed in jail a long time ago. Do I have the right to be? Maybe... I do.

I'm only human, sue me for having these feelings.

P/S: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE. ILY.
P/P/S: this is not even KPOP related, mkay.

Hope is my dream that'd never sleeps.

2010-08-07T23:42:00.003+08:00

Kyu-Biased Post. Don't read further if you're not interested.

LOOK AT KYUHYUN'S SMILE. FML.

I honestly wonder how I'd be like during SS3 when I get to see him perform, hearing his deep voice, staring at him and his almost-perfect self. I'd probably bawl my eyeballs out whenever he sings? IDK~ I mean, I cried like fug when I watched Yesung performing his solo at the SJ Showcase and he's not even my bias. T.T

Kyuhyun would kill me during SS3 and I'm... prepared, I think? IDK, have an ambulance on standby just in case I faint or something. Heh.

and bc, I'm such a romantic. LOL! /gets bricked with stones

OH~ and he sang a new OST for Baking King. GDI, his voice! Just effing listen and tell me if you don't find that he has a great voice. If you think otherwise, I think you might need to go for an ear checkup. D:

"During hard times, you will be my strength...
Forever, my heart will only be towards you."

I should sing that part to that kid. :) Guh, the urge of wanting to meet him is even more right now.

And NADILLAH! WELCOME BACK TO SINGAPORE BB! Let's have fun on Monday with Fid and Nurul. We'll be bouncing, punching, screaming, hugging and whatnots on that day okay? ^^

is this love?

2010-07-26T22:46:00.005+08:00

I really really really love this song; it makes me feel like I'm in love. ^^ And the fact that Kyuhyun's falsetto at the end killed me. Sigh... why are you so... imperfectly perfect? Are you even real?

I'm on MC today. My head is still throbbing, I don't know how I'm going to survive at work and night class tmr. Urgh. And I stayed online just in case he tweets but meh, it's late - I should be sleeping now. That boy better not ninja around and tweet when I'm about to sleep.

Is this love? I want you feel just like me.
Is this fate? I want you feel the same about me.

@GaemGyu

2010-07-25T22:12:00.005+08:00

credits to @Heedictator

Kyuhyun lost in 가위바위보 (rock, paper, scissors). Padan muke, who asked you to keep your twitter account a secret? It was only confirmed today and I went crazy on my Twitter. Even though I'm burning up to almost 38.8 degrees, I had the strength to spazz. ᄏᄏᄏᄏᄏ

credits to @ryeong9

dah kalah, abe merajuk. pffft!

@GaemGyu : 너... 바보... ^^

//editted at 10:41pm

BAFKSJGSBGSJKBGAHJSGNJSNG!!! HE JUST TWEETED A PIC OF HIM WITH HIS GAMER FRIENDS. HI, THIS IS ME GOING CRAZY ON MY TWITTER. I WANNA JUMP DOWN DUE TO HAPPINESS. 8D 8D

LUCIFER

2010-07-24T01:36:00.002+08:00

I...don't really like Jjong's hair in the new concept but his guns... O______O Taemin is so pretty, IDEK. ;_; Yesterday was their comeback stage and tbh, Minho nailed it. :) I can't wait to get my SHINee Lucifer Album and I can go spazz like crazy with Nurul and Fid. Hi Album, please arrive in SG fast. :D

I already have a few favourites in this album: Life, Obsession (Jjong wrote the lyrics ^^), Quasimodo (!!! A HUGE MUST!), Your Name (Onew wrote the lyrics~) and Ready or Not?

"Pretty boy Kyuhyun hyung, hold me one more time!" - Jjong to Kyu in his "Thanks To" WTEFFFF JJONG, what are you two always during practices?!

/wants to join.

Second Chance

2010-07-18T23:36:00.002+08:00

생일축하합니다 이태민! :D and you are still not legal. ;_;

I'm super tired. ;______; I just recovered from high fever, flu and sorethroat. My body is still weak but meh, work is work. I'm really looking forward to weekends now - it's the only time I could rest. And~ SHINee boys LUCIFER MV will be released tmr. :D I'm excited! The boys looked amazing in their MV Teaser so I'm expecting their MV would be a blast. :)

And if you still don't know why this boy is precious to me, watch this.

If he didn't survive back then... I wouldn't be who I am right now. There's so much I want to say here but no one would EVER understand how he played a part in my life because people think I'm just a delusional fangirl. Only a handful know this and I appreciate that they took the time and effort to understand why and they know how important he is to me. And for that, I thank these people for understanding me.

@lee_jinah(Fid) @_minjung(Nurul) @_leeminki(Nad) : 정말 감사합니다... 마니마니 사랑해요... ^^

Dear God, thank You for saving this kid back then.

No Other

2010-07-11T08:12:00.002+08:00

Is it even possible to love two person at the same time but at a different level? Does it makes sense when one needs the other in life, while one wants another one in life?

Two different person - two different characteristics and charm but there's one thing that they have in common; both are able to make my heart beat fast and there's this strong desire to want both of them. And the though of letting either one go is just... impossible. I am selfish, I know.

One... he has always been there for me, the one whom I seek comfort in, the one who I can never forget because he has helped me in ways that no one can. Bottomline: I NEED him. NEED. There's no way I can leave him. He's irreplacable, period.

The other... he has just entered my life but whatever his characteristics are, it FITS what I WANT. He has the qualities of a good other half or do I dare say, husband? He fits everything. Summary, he has everything that I look for in a person.

Okay, what? Why am I ranting this so early in the morning? PSH. Ignore me.

OH OH OH! THIS! No Other MV was released a few days ago but I didn't get a chance to post it up. NGGGHHHHHHH, I was nearly tearing up mkay! The lyrics are sweet and the MV makes it even more sweeter. Guh!

FAVOURITE PART: 1:07 - 1:19 // FML, why is this boy so gorgeous? ;___;

There's no one like you...

today is a DJ Day.

2010-07-04T03:26:00.005+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday, Doojoon. :)
You're gorgeously talented and humble, stay that way okay? LY.
It's DJ's day today so I'm gonna post up the video that totally made me stop breathing for a while a few months ago and it still made my heart stop rn.

The way he plays the piano, his teary eyes and painful expression at 3:13 - FML, i'm a sucker for these things.

And really, I don't wanna say goodbye...

BEAST!

2010-07-01T07:36:00.006+08:00

OMG, HI! I'M ABANDONING THIS BLOG LIKE AKHAHAKJFNA! GUH.
Okay, here's a quick update ok. I don't even know where to start.

I MET BEAST UPCLOSE IN REAL LIFE AND MY GOD, THEY ARE GORGEOUS CREATURES LIVING ON EARTH OKAY. GOD DAMN IT. So much drama happened while waiting for the event to start and yuh, I cried and sobbed badly. Just because I'm a cry baby ok.

But before that, I would like to say I LOVE MY TLIST A WHOLE LOT. @lee_jinah @_minjung @CHULiette46 @odeuliyang – these people knew how much I wanted to meet Doojoon and the reason why I want to see him so bad – they didn’t want me to be disappointed and heartbroken for the second time in a month after Super Junior’s showcase (cos Kyu wasn't there). ILY PEOPLE OK. I SWEAR.

Yoseob – how can this boy be the same age as me and yet looks so cute that I just want to squish up his face! I was so excited that I waved both my hands to him while saying “HIII~!!!” like a little kid and he gave a huge grin and said “Annyeonghaseyo~” to me in a singing tone. GODDAMNIT. OMG.

Junhyung – I am so sorry for calling this guy weird but after yesterday, I swear… this guy… even if he gives off that weird aura, his stare, his glare, his smirk, his face… OMG. He didn’t talk much and I didn’t dare to say much except for a small timid “hello” :/ he looks… intimidating. I bowed to him after getting my album back. :D

Kikwang – HIS EYELINER. OMG. HIS JET BLACK HAIR. OMG. All I said to him was a simple “Hi, hello, annyeong!” and after he signed my album, he said, “THANK YOU, TAKE CARE!” OMFG. /dies/ and he’s not even my bias ok. Guh.

Hyunseung – BSGJKBSHJS!!!! HIS EYES ARE SO SPARKLY! He was about to sign my album when I said, “Hi!” and he looked up for a while and I took that chance to look into his sparkly eyes that was almost covered by his Maggie fringe. GAAH! And after tt, I did the most dorkiest thing ever; I said, “OMG. YOU ARE SO PRETTY!!!” and he gave me this super adorable puppy eyes look and he blinked several times. LOL! I don’t care if you don’t understand what I said Hyunseung, bottomline, NOMU YEPPEO!

Dongwoon – HOLY SHIT. IS. THIS. BOY. EVEN. A. KOREAN?! He said “Hello” to me before signing my album and I just burst out, “OMG. YOU ARE SO HANDSOME!” and he gave me that goddamn gorgeous smile of his. HOLYSHIT OK. HE IS REAL. SON DONGWOON EXIST AND HE IS REAL.

and….. pls beware of my massive use of caplocks.

Doojoon – OMG! MY LIFE! YOON DOO JOON!!!! DOO JOON OPPA!!! HOLY EFF! GAAAH! IDEK ANYMORE! The moment he was infront of me, I was like OMG NRZ, SAY IT! SAY IT! And he took my album from Yoseob and while he was signing, I just collected my guts and courage to say, “DOO JOON OPPA! SARANGHAE!” and he looked up and gave me that DROP DEAD GORGEOUS SMILE WITH THAT EYES STARING INTENSELY. OMFG. MY LIFE. IM TELLING YOU.

I’m glad he didn’t reply cos if he did, I WOULD HONESTLY GO BONKERS THERE AND THEN.

I was screaming my lungs out, “DOOJOON OPPPPPAAAAA!!!” that my throat had this sharp pain and my voice got all hoarse. Aigooo, he looks so namja IRL okay. The other members were so gorgeous too! GUH, are boys allowed to look this gorgeous and pretty?

FANCAM OF THE BIRTHDAY SONG FOR LEADER AND MAKNAE! :D
credits to my lovely Fid Unnie. ^^

THAT GUY, THE ONE HOLDING THE BIRTHDAY CAKE AT 00:36 - HE IS MY NAMJA OK. /dies

Oh and in case if you are wondering, the one who screamed "OMMMMMGGGG HYUNSEEEUUNNNNNGGGGG!!!" and "OMGGGG YOSEOBBBB WHAT IS HE DOOOIINNNNGGG?! WHY IS HEEE SOOO CUUTTEEEEE!!!!" - THAT IS MY LOVELY UMMA, NURUL. XD Her spazzings and screamings are daebak, okay.

And uh, yea... the last part... that "DOOOOOJOOOOONNNN OPPPPAAAAA!!!!!!" it was yours truly. Okay no, I'm gonna find a hole, dig it and hide myself. Heh.

GORGEOUS BOYS ARE GORGEOUS. NGL. This is one of the best days of my life. :D

HI, IM ALIVE.

2010-06-23T00:52:00.002+08:00

Wow... it's been... ages.

So, hi everyone who still bothers reading this. I've been busy lately - my PG 1 kids were all down with HFMD for the past two weeks, my night classes have already started and my laptop decided to pass away. Yuh, at this very moment. PSH.

What's been happening? Too many things; I can't be bothered to type out everything. My twitter is like my mini blog - whatever that is happening, I'd tweet. So having a blog is like.... meh?

Super Junior Showcase nearly 3 weeks ago. Super Show 3 in S'pore late this year/early next year. BEAST Fansign THIS FRIDAY! :D

I'M A HAPPY GIRL. :)

this is reality.

2010-06-05T21:58:00.003+08:00

guess who gets to meet the boys tmr...

without Kyuhyun... while everybody else is spazzing over their fav.ones, my heart is pining for him. ;_;

i should be thankful tt i get to meet them. <3

2010-06-01T20:44:00.002+08:00

I'M TOO LAZY TO UPDATE.
TWITTER is like my 2nd home already,so...... you get the idea.

2nd SHINeeversary ^^

2010-05-25T08:41:00.004+08:00

Today is a HAPPY DAY. :D :D :D

Happy 2nd Anniversary, SHINee!
Lee Jinki, Kim Jonghyun, Kim Kibum, Choi Minho, Lee Taemin - pls stay this way till whenever. *inserts aloooooot of heartshapes* And guys, I hope your comeback will be a blast. ^^

OHHHHH~ DEBUT STAGE. When they were so kental and young back then. XD

"Noona nomu yeppeo~~~"

I can never forget 29 January 10, 13 March 10 and 14 March 10, ever. :)

double dosage

2010-05-23T23:20:00.002+08:00

the Double Hyuns

I've seen the younger Hyun IRL before; all I need is to see the other Hyun IRL and I'll be the most happiest girl in the world.

SJ is coming to S'pore on the 6th of June but thanks to the stupid organising team but very smart strategy, fans have to purchase this Samsung Android Galaxy phone to get a pair of tickets to the showcase and mind you, the phone itself makes me wish it was raining money. Sigh.

But let me just get a glimpse of Kyuhyun at the airport, please? ;_;

BONAMANA MV

2010-05-16T21:54:00.002+08:00

1 MV, 3 LIVE Performances and I've still not updated my blog with all the hotness ozzing out from the SJ boys. No, correct that. They are MEN now- NAMJA.

Okay, the MV just.... killed me right there and then. My KPOP kakis who knows that I'm crazy for Kyuhyun texted me saying how EFFINGHOT he was in the MV - even Nad who's currently in Adelaide texted me. LOL! The power of Kyu. :P And I was almost tearing up when I watched the MV aft I got home from work. The reason? My BB looks efffffffiiiiinnnnnnngggggg gorgeous and he's now upfront dancing with the lead dancers in SJ. Kyuhyun can't dance to save his life last time. ;_;

HIS HAIR, HIS FACE, HIS LIPS, HIS VOICE, HIS SMIRK, HIS PELVIC THRUST, HIS DANCE MOVES, HIS EVERYTHING = I'M OTW TO KYU HEAVEN.

My favourite part is 00:58; he looked like he own this with all his other members at the back. I kept repeating that part for godknowshowmanytimes.

Everyone was talking about how much he has improved (his dancing skills) and I felt like a proud mama watching her son all grown up. /sobbing/ And I spazzed like crazy while watching Inkigayo thru LiveStreaming that I almost hit my keyboard. Heh. Well... at least I don't bother people's life and I was spazzing in my own world. :D

/kicks DinoJJong to aside for awhile, surry BB ^^/

p/s: i'm changing my bloglink to the same link as my tumblr. maybe today, tmr or... whenever i like it. (:

BONAMANA

2010-05-11T22:32:00.002+08:00

Super Junior's Title Track was released yesterday. And the MV would be out tmr. ;______________; I am so looking forward to see Kyuhyun and the boys again. Holy crap, their new song is like a remix between a bollywood song and those type of songs that are played in clubs. No shit.

I've been listening to it all day and I'm nearly there with the lyrics. I'm a ninja. :)
But seriously, it's addictive but I hate those auto-tune thingy that makes their voices sound robotic. ;_;

BONAMANA BONAMANA BONAMANA~

SJ TEASER

2010-05-08T02:59:00.002+08:00

SJ 4th Album Teaser was out yesterday.
HOLYCRAPSHITPOTATOESMUSHROOMS! I was holding my breathe throughout the 1 minute while watching the teaser and I kept "OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG". That's how bad I spazz. ;___________;

Cho Kyuhyun - my first love in KPOP. ;_;

Yes, that's my boy there with the shades. UNF much.

13th May - 10 members; I'm looking forward to it.

SUPER JUNIOR 4TH ALBUM TEASER - click here

Oh and their new title track is Miina; LIKE SERIOUSLY?! Okay, so it apparently means BEAUTY in Korean but in our language, Minah is... yknow i know. :D Fuh, now I'll take it as a compliment if someone comes up to me and say "EH, YOU'RE A MINAH." *smiles widely*

It's 3am, I should go get some sleep. Jal ja everyone~ :)

(GIFs credits to snb123@LJ)

Y.O.U

2010-05-06T08:11:00.003+08:00

Jealous to no end. /sobs/

It's already Thursday~ which also means WEEKENDS ARE NEARING, EFF YEAH! :D I've a date with Myra Minah Custom on Saturday; its been a while since I crap with that babygirl. I'm afraid I might lose that noisy part of me since I'm so occupied with work.

So much 2MIN-Love on my tumblr dash in the morning. ;___; GET MARRIED ALRDY YO THE TWO OF YOU.

And recently, this song has been replaying in my head for idk what reasons. I used to not like Y.O.U cos of the "you, you, you~~~" ; I find it too draggy. But meh, I'm head over heels with it now. :)

Nothing can stop me from loving you, you, you....
The reason why I breathe is you, you, you....
The reason why I sing is you, you, you....

SJ COMEBACK

2010-05-04T22:28:00.001+08:00

4TH JIB - 10 MEMBERS.

From 13 to 10, I am not ready for this.

Random Update #8

2010-05-02T18:02:00.001+08:00

I start at 10am tmr. I want to have breakfast at McD before heading to work. Meh, most probably, I'd just wake up late and there goes my breakfast. ;___;

Oh I did a stupid thing just now. I peeled off the skin on my heels cos my hands were itchy and now, I can't walk properly cos it hurts when I stand. My whole weight is pressing down on my feet. Gee, I'm such a genius.

Okay so blogger is being a bitch and refuse to upload photos. Fine, I'll go to lala land to meet my dino.

Byeeee~

2nd update in May yo!

2010-05-01T07:42:00.005+08:00

Oh hey. I blogged earlier and I'm blogging again cos I'm bored. I'll be heading over to Fid's crib later to watch SHINee Night Photobook DVD. /jumps ard/ And then head off to meet Ain. :)

See this kid? I love that idiotic smile. /kicks/

It gives me a warm feeling inside.

On the other hand, it made me think. Firstly, I always get blamed for things that I don't know what actually happened. Secondly, maybe I'm too nice to just ignore. Thirdly, people don't know a thing but they judge blindly.

Life; that's how it is.

MAY DAY~

2010-05-01T07:42:00.002+08:00

MY. BACK. IS. GOING. TO. BREAK. ANY. SOONER.

Seriously, NGL... being a teacher, esp a pre-sch teacher is tiring. And my weekends are now so precious, I need to catch up with some sleep but uh... yea. Just look at the time now. I'm doing the closing shift in May and my course starts on 20th May. /cries bucket of tears/ I forsee more sleepless nights in time to come. I just have to learn how to juggle between work, school and kpop-spazzing / free time. Like, I don't even have time to meet up with my friends anymore. Weekends? IDNW to burn my weekends. :/

So hey, another new month already. And that also concludes, Happy 1st year to Singlehood for me. ^^v EFF you people who didn't have the trust and believe in me that I could stay like this for a year. In your face~ :)

I want to dye my hair again cos right now, the colour is just bleah. I need a lighter shade of brown. I want a tragus piercing, again. I feel incomplete w/o it, honestly. :/ But I just can't be bothered to keep buying studs when each time, it'd just drop off. And I want to chop off my hair, I need a new look - its too boring already. Noorhamirah Helmy is going to kill me if I ever chop off my hair. Maybe I should draaaaag her along to get my hair chop off. I'm an evil girl. ^^v

SFI finally subbed Episode 12 of Hello Baby. /sobs/ I didn't dare to watch it when it was aired w/o subs, I wanted to wait patiently for this epic episode so that I can cry like there's no tmr.

It's already 8am and I'm not asleep yet. Ninja.

And guess who is a certified child first-aider now? /looks into the mirror/ MEH! ^^v

Random Update #7

2010-04-27T22:39:00.002+08:00

So I had two new students in class just now and the usuals first-day behaviour, crying and wailing out, "MUMMMMYYY~~~". My neck, back, hands, legs are sore from carrying one of the kids. She's chubby and has heavy bones, mind you. And tmr, dundundun~ another new kid is coming for my class. I forsee more crying. T_T

Okay, US Boyfriend is on teevee now, (RYAN WOLFE~) - am going off to watch him and then my Korean Boyfriend will lullaby me to sleep. My life is WIN, right? I know. ^^

"A.Mi.Go; I lose my mind when I see her." - Jjong ♥
I lose MY mind when I see you, dinosaur. ^^

2010-04-25T11:42:00.004+08:00

이게 뭐야?

I slept way early last night (not even close to 12am, like wow) and I woke up to chaos. WHUT. Not a good way to start my day, esp when I woke up so early. But ahh, life goes on. I don't bother replying to anything, like what's the point? It'd be a waste of my time. Bottomline, people do whatever that may please them.

I'm... putting on weight. :/ I think. I've been eating alot, like NOMSNOMSNOMS. Mother cooked sambal sotong today and I'm gonna ONNOMSNOMSNOMS like there's no tmr. :D

I love these beetches.
It makes me wanna fly down to RP and meet my ladies. NZMRN, bile krg freeeee?

The BYTF girls and me had Korean lunch and Fondue at Swensens yesterday at City Square Mall. My first time being there, like wow. I felt like I was at Orchard instead of Farrer Park. Oh and the MRT map right now makes me dizzy. Green line, Yellow line, Purple line, Red Line and I heard there's gonna be a Blue line somewhat in the future? O_O I swear I'll get lost taking the MRT one day.

YAH, YOU DINOSAUR, YOU MADE ME SPAZZ AT CC LIKE A CRAZY BITCH. YOU'RE HAPPY NOW? LOL.

Ahhh, it's raining, it's pouring~ God bless everyone. :D
Bye!

KIM JONGHYUN

2010-04-24T02:34:00.004+08:00

I LOVE THIS GUY.
SO STFU AND FIND SOMEONE ELSE. PERIOD.

/pushes Minho to Nurul/
:)

INCOMPLETE

2010-04-22T22:18:00.002+08:00

“He’s the reason I’m messed up. The reason I can’t get myself into another relationship, no matter how hard I try, no matter how bad I want to, I’m scared. I’m scared of hurting someone else. Because I could never love anyone the way I love him.”- (via thisbruisedheart)

안녕~

Nothing much is happening. Tmr is Friday, like yay! I can have rest on weekends - I want to sleep like a pig. I'm honestly drained out much, IDK why. Tumblr is being a bitch RN so that's the reason why I'm blogging here. :)

And seriously people, why are some people out there still oh-so insecure about their r/ships? It irks me, yknow - to the effing core. I mean, do I look like a threat to you or something? Gee. Maybe I should get myself a boyfriend so that people would stop feeling insecure about their r/ship with their boys, maybe then they would stop bothering me and STFU. ^^

LOL, why am I like this?

Oh and the BYTF girls should know that I'm on a cold-war with Choi Minho due to the performance he had with Yuri during SNSD concert. You can't blame a girl for getting jealous, right? And so, that's why I'm leaping into Jonghyun's arms. :D

FML. SO GORJES.

I can make believe I have everything,
but I can't pretend that I don't see,
that without you girl, my life is incomplete...

summary of the past week

2010-04-20T22:19:00.003+08:00

16 April 2010
Happy 3rd Year to us, NZMRN. 3 years of loving, crying, bitching, pampering, teasing, irritate the hell out of each other, staying together and the list goes on... insyaAllah, this will last till our very last heartbeat. Thank you for everything that you girls have done for me through these years. And though I'm super busy with my working life right now, do know tt I miss each and everyone of you sfm. I'm sorry if I don't have the time to text and ask how are you girls doing. I hope we could meet up soon, okay? Please be happy with your other halfs and do not worry much about me. ILYG to bits and pieces.

17 April 2010
Happy 17th Bday, Baby Brother. Your bday pressie will only be given to you after I get my next pay. Heh. Please be a good boy in school cos your sister here can't stop worrying about you getting influenced by the mats in sch. Hur. But I trust that you're wise enough to know what's good and what's bad. <3

Achik Spin passed away due to a car accident on this date. He was an awesome singer and I used to sing his songs during my growing up years, to think that he would pass away at a young age. ): May Allah bless his soul, Rest In Peace.

18 April 2010
Ho, finally a proper outing with the BYTF girls. :) It's my first time (actually, 2nd but the 1st was when we didn't know each other YET) meeting Fid Unnie, (she's a year older so technically, I'd called her Unnie~) I love every single minute of it pls. I practically laughed every few minutes and we finally had our ice-cream date at Swensens. I'm so glad that I've found them and its amazing how small the world is. Everyone just knows everyone else. I finally felt belonged to a KPOP clique and they don't mind the crazy spazzings tt I have on my twitter - they even spazzed with me, even crazier. Heh. BYTF Girls, next outing will be Fondue okay? The Maknae demands on it. /looks at Elfie/ And Visual Umma~ /looks at Nurul/ hwaiting for your attachment okay bb. ^^v

19 April 2010
Happy Birthday Zhoumi Gege! :D I'm sorry I couldn't trend on your bday cos I was busy at work and got home late. ): But nevertheless, I hope you had a great birthday, wherever you are now. / And this date also serves as a reminder than three years ago, Kyuhyun nearly lost his life in that car accident. /sobs.

And I'm done summarising whatever that's been going on for the past week.

I want Kim Jonghyun as a boyfriend - we totally fit each other perfectly (in terms of height) :D And since he's an AB blood type, he goes well with a B blood type (me). But I can forsee a love-hate r/ship just because I love to tease this short dude. ^^

EFF LA. YOUTUBE REFUSE TO PLAY AUTOMATICALLY ON MY BLOG. /kicks YT/

Missing you, them, us.

2010-04-15T00:09:00.002+08:00

current hp wallpaper; just cos im a sucker for guys with specs. i ditched Yoogeun's photo as my wallpaper for this.

It has been a month and one day. But I miss all five, especially you - the one who looks like a Frog.

I miss NZMRN. When can I see you girls again? I miss Khairiyah, I want to spazz with her. I miss Nazri and his calls. I miss BYTL girls, I want a complete four outing. I miss my SC cliques - I don't have time for them anymore. /sigh.

Okay, I'm off. Just a boring update to bore you guys. (:
Annyeong~

The Weekend is OVER. ):

2010-04-11T23:32:00.003+08:00

Okay, so... I met up with the BYTF girls yesterday and we went KPOPPing the whole day, no shit. So uh yea, they said they didn't expect me to be that short. LOL. They were total sweethearts okay. We talked and spazzed like as if we know each other for a looong time but honestly, our friendship just started and its through Tumblr and Twitter. :)

We went to get the posters, walked to Cineleisure, BBQ Chicken-ed and watch Dream Concert, spazzing when SHINee performed, danced and sang along, choked on our chicken and we left the restaurant with happy smiles on our faces. We had Korean ice-cream and i spent a few more buckeroos on SHINee posters. HEY! Good investment okay. :/

Next meetup, let's drag Fid Unnie along with us. :D

And my room has suddenly turned into a SHINee infested wall.
PRECTION.

So tmr is my baby (as in a really a pampered baby, kekeke) Elfie first day in College along with my babybrother. Maknae, don't be scared on your first day okay? You'll do well. :) To my brother, dude, you better not get influenced by the mats in school or I'll hunt those people down.

Jonghyun always gets to me at 1:54-2:09. UNF.

Birthday Wishes!

2010-04-10T04:28:00.004+08:00

It's nearly 5am and I'm not asleep. I have a date with my BYTL girls tmr and I don't wanna wake up late. Hur. But first, quick update

Yesterday was Limin's Sweet 17!
Happy Birthday Limin! :D
Aigoo~ my fav dongsaeng turns a year older, neh? ^^ I hope you liked the MMS bday msg tt i sent to you and i really hope we get to meet again one day. Remember what brought us together? (: Yes, that boy; our silly fat spoiltbrat. Hee. Do know tt I will always miss you and tt I do think of you, okay? Take care of yourself BB. Saranghae~

Last two days was Jjong's Second Decade. :P
Happy (belated) 20th Jonghyun!
You're a little dinosaur and sometimes, I don't fancy you at all but you're irritatingly cute ok. I hope you had a blast birthday with the boys. :) ILY.

And of course, this boy whom I love so effing much,
Yoogeun ah~
now that Hello Baby has ended, pls don't forget your SHINee Appas okay?
You may not understand how much you mean to them at this point of time but when you watch their video messages to you when you get older, you'll understand how hard it was to let you go. In the meantime, be a good boy, listen to your (real) Umma and Appa, be good to your Noona and your Halmoni, okay baby? Grow up to be a handsome man just like your SHINee Appas.

You will always be the Shining Baby in our hearts. We miss you already.

Lastly to my girls,
I miss you babies so much. When's our date to the Universal Studio? I can't wait! Our 3rd Anniversary is coming up! Keep me updated abt the KL trip okay! ^^ I'm so excited that I got to take off on that day. /jumps ard/

And since it's already 10th April, Happy 52th Birthday Daddy. I love you eventhough you get on my nerves at times.

Life couldn't get better. :)

WHY CAN'T YOUTUBE VIDEOS BE PLAYED ON BLOGGER? /pissed

random update #6

2010-04-08T00:28:00.000+08:00

I'm dead beat. Work ends at 6pm everyday but I have to attend a First Aid Course starting last Monday and it ends next Thursday. And mind you, I get home at 10pm almost everyday this week. I'm literally drained out.

I woke up with swollen eyes thanks to the SHINee boys and Yoogeun - yesterday was Hello Baby's last episode. I bawled my eyes out, I cried like as if my boyfr left me. Hur, that bad. I've not watched the whole episode yet, I'm too afraid I might break down and cry.

And it's Jjong's birthday today. :) I'm gonna post it tmr. I'm off to sleep.
Annyeong~

p/s: a KL Trip with my girls is all I need. I can't wait. ^^

Random Update #5

2010-04-04T22:19:00.002+08:00

I'm here to just have another random update.
I am not a pretty girl tonight cos some people made me pissed.

Why am I like this? ^^

Hur. I don't care. I do stuff that makes me happy and I'm not even bothering your effing lives. (: And /stabs self/ I won't be around at night from tmr til Thursday cos I gotta attend a First-Aid course tt ends at 9.30pm.

Which means~ NO TUMBLR. NO TWITTER. NO SPAZZING WITH MY BYFT BABIES. Yes, I live on Tumblr and Twitter cos I have no life, okay? Okay.

Fid Unnie, Nurul, Elfie - I will miss you three okay. /sobs/

Okay bye, I need Kim "Jongyeon" to lullaby me to sleep. 여보, your wife needs you now. /kicks Jjong/ ^^

UNF. THE 2 LEAD VOCALS IN SHINee. Just UNF.

random update #4

2010-04-03T03:26:00.002+08:00

It's currently 4:17am and yet, I'm still spazzing away on my tumblr and new twitter account with my favourite osm beeyooteefull ladies. :)

Fid Unnie, Nurul, Elfie - prection okay.

Okay, Nurul and Elfie may be younger than me but I am the eternal maknae, okay? Okay. /in self denial/ Whut.

Baby is most probably fast asleep and yet I'm here reblogging, liking and spazzing.

I know, 95% of my post is irrelevant. But who cares, it's my blog. Don't like; don't read. :)

My Beloved Kids

2010-04-02T02:40:00.003+08:00

We had Easter celebration just now. Eggs, chocolates, bunny. It's easy to put a smile on a child's face. :)

And this, I've mentioned before. my 3 yr old son, Shaun and the other one is my 4 yr old daughter, Reanne.

I love them to the effing core though they get on my nerves at times.

I'm one awesome teacher. I infested my kids with the KPOP frenzy and now, they kept singing and dancing to Nobody, Sorry Sorry and Gee. Hee. What happened to nursery rhymes?

they call this the "No, No, No, No, No" song. :)

Nobody but you

2010-03-30T23:56:00.002+08:00

That place is still empty.

I dreamt that Minho was my classmate yesternight. Weird. One of my colleagues, Qi Laoshi apparently knows Super Junior Sorry Sorry and she started dancing to it during the kids tea time. Heh. I already burn a cd containing a few KPOP songs which is dance-able to my kids and am gonna use it tmr. :) My kids love that "i want Nobody, nobody but chuuu~" song and kept singing that line every few minutes. How adorable, pls.

Ahh, let's remember the old times yea?

I want nobody, nobody but chu~

Finally, tags replied.

random update #3

2010-03-30T00:18:00.003+08:00

Hi, meet my almost 3 year old son, Shaun.
I love him to bits and pieces.

I miss Dex David Tang Yi Xun and I'm craving for McD.
Okay, bye.

random update #2

2010-03-28T23:08:00.002+08:00

It's been two weeks already and yet, I still miss these boys.
Hurry up with your comeback in April.

Nazri passed his TP on Friday. D'aww, that little boy has certainly grown up fast. He can already drive a car now and yes, am very proud of him. :) I've been abandoning my blog, yes? I know, I'm so sorry. I don't find a need to update cos all I've been doing is go to work, go home, tumblr, sleep. Nothing interesting is going on in my life :) You don't expect me to keep spazzing abt KPOP over at my blog right? I have my tumblr to do all the spazzing - whereby people appreciate my spazzings and spazz along with me. Thank God for Tumblr.

I hope there's no Monday blues tmr and that my kids will not get on my nerves. Hur. It's amazing how much kids could get on yr nerves but you still love them with all your heart.

I want to be a kid again.

My Frog

2010-03-26T22:38:00.002+08:00

This GIF is like falling in love at first sight. My heart skipped a beat when I saw this on my Tumblr dash.

What did you just do to me, you Frog.

I'm not usually a Rap kind of person but hey, it's my BB who's rapping in this song so uh... it's exceptional? Yeah. :D And KEY's English? Perfect.

NaddSulhi's 2nd Season!

2010-03-25T22:56:00.002+08:00

Firstly, before the 25th ends... I would like to wish them a very

HAPPY 2ND SEASON NADD & SULHI!

I wish both of you the best in life and keep the loving flame burning yea? Faster get married and have pretty little babies. ^^ Oh and last till your very last heartbeat, m'kay? Many loves and blessings from ME~! :D

_____________________________________________

For the first time in many months, I dreamt about him and I felt like crying when I woke up this morning. I went to work with a heavy heart, listening to sappy sad songs and then... it rained. Heavily. Because I can't cry any longer, the Nature did it for me. I felt better when it rained. But as much as I want to bawl my eyes out, life goes on...

Oh well, I still have Kyuhyun and Minho to keep me happy. ^^

p/s: i'll reply to tags soon kay.

Azura's 21st!

2010-03-22T00:39:00.003+08:00

To NZMSRN's Favourite Baby Tuer,

Happy Legally 21st Birthday, Azura!

Words can't describe how much I appreciate you and the rest of the girls or how much and how deep my love is for you and the others. Never once did I ever regret having you as a friend - it's been nearly three years since we first met.

Now look at you Babe. You're already 21 - when it feels that it was only just yesterday that I first saw you entering the lab, with me staring at you from where I was sitting. Heh.

So on this very day, on your birthday - I would like you to know that I love you so fucking much even if we don't text much or we don't meet often, you are always in my heart and that I will never, EVER forget you and the rest of the girls for the rest of my life.

Thank you for existing in my life. I love you.
Happy Birthday once again.

p/s: CEPAT KAHWIN DGN APIT! NAK MKN NASI MINYAK! ^^
p/p/s: i hope you liked the gifts and the mini celebration we had for you.

Hey Love, Stay.

2010-03-21T06:08:00.007+08:00

I'll be meeting my girls in a few hours time. I'm excited. I miss them like hell yknow. And I'm feeling sore yesternight cos SJ was in KL. Hur. But I should at least be thankful that I get to meet SHINee the week before. Some people don't even have the chance to catch a glimpse of them or any KPOP artiste.

I woke up at 3am and then I couldn't sleep until now. So I decided to catch up with Hello Baby and I ROFLMFAO at Episode 8 - Yoogeun loves targetting the SHINee boys manhood.

effing shit la, YT refuse to play videos when i posted them on my blog. urgh.

I thank God for all the wonderful memories. :)

I'm busy, kay?

2010-03-19T23:41:00.002+08:00

I'm busy with life right now. I have a job, I have my kids and I have a family to be with. And yes, I have my KPOP fandoms as well.

In short, I have a life.

So... naturally, this blog will be abandoned for about a day or so before you see me updating again.

As promised, one of Atikah's fancam from last week's Singapore Entertainment Award.

I love how we were all chanting and singing along with SHINee. SG SHAWOLS, you guys are super jjang! And at 1:40 and 2:40, when Minho came out, I was practically screaming like mad.

I still can't believe I saw them with my very own eyes. I still can't believe I heard them live. No, I'm NOT gonna stop talking about this for a very very very long time. It was only a week ago but yet, it felt like it was just yesterday. Hur, the withdrawal symptoms is bad.

I'm in love.

Get Well Soon

2010-03-18T04:18:00.000+08:00

It's barely a week ago since I saw you in real life and now you injured yourself during Dream Team recording. What am I to do about you, Choi Minho? NGL, I had tears in my eyes when I was watching the video of him falling down and writhing in pain. Please get well soon, silly Alien.

I love this boy, even if people were to say that he looks like a frog.

빛나는 SHINee! :D

2010-03-16T06:48:00.004+08:00

The last weekend of my life was hectic.

Friday: Overnight queue at IMM - reached at 10.45pm.
Saturday: 9am, sale of Showcase Pass and Album. 5pm, Singapore Entertainment Awards Show.
Sunday: SHINee's Album Showcase - starts at 2pm, arrived 8.45am.

Yes, three whole days just for SHINee. I'm honestly dead beat, drained out literally. I know that now I need to take in a lot of sugar to strengthen myself up again. But this was worth anything. I wouldn't trade my memory with any amount of money in this world. Patience pays - it really does. When the first time they came to SG, I only get to see them at the airport, which is merely 5 seconds this time round, I got to see them for say... at least 30 mins and they even sang Live.

In total, I took about 1011 photos. I have no idea how am I gonna finish watermarking ALL my pictures. Hee. But I'm satisfied. Who wouldn't be? ^^

S.E.A was awesome! The boys looked so gorgeous in white for the Red Carpet Ceremony. Though we had to wait for like 5 hours before SHINee performed, it was worth every single second. Now, after hearing them LIVE (as in really Live in front of my own eyes and not from videos), I dare say that this is one of the boyband that is so freaking talented! Their LIVE was just amaaazing!

If not because I had a big camera with me, I would have danced along to Replay, Jojo and Ring Ding Dong. But what I do know, I did dance along to Replay and RDD, even while holding the camera. :D My screams for Minho were the loudest. Can't blame me, right? That boy is so gorgeous in real life.

The Album Showcase was greaaat! I didn't stand among the crowds, I stood at the back on a bench so that I could be on eye level with SHINee, hoping that somehow, they would notice my area along with some other Shawols. And yea, the people around me were all around my same age - nothing to be ashamed about. :)

(ONEW WAS EYEING MY CAMERA!)

They came on stage, everyone started chanting their favourite member's name but I hear no Minho. Hur. So I took the opportunity to shout out loud, as loud as possible, "MINHO SARANGHAEEEEE!" after the chanting died down a bit and waved my hands frantically towards his direction. Who cares if he didn't hear it. Maybe he did too. LOL. But overall, I love the pictures that I took during the Showcase. I didn't even realise some of them were looking into my camera! I'm so effing lucky!

Key and Onew looked into my camera for several times! If I were to be a KEY bias, I would have fainted right there mkay! Oh and we sang Happy Birthday to Jonghyun - an advance birthday song since his birthday is on 8th April. He went from this :/ to this :D.

Key's ability to find cameras are awesome! No, he's awesome cos he's always trying to look at my camera. ^^ and Minho! Who cares if people think you're a frog or an Alien? You're so handsome okay!

*crying* i effing love this shot cos Onew and Taemin were looking at my camera while doing the Heart. if only Minho looked at my direction, this would have been epic. Oh and yes, that blue board that is covering half of Onew's face... I'm cursing and swearing like mad. Hmph.

Until now, I can't believe that I met them. Again. And now I have hundreds of pictures for memories. Give me time to upload them - most probably on my Tumblr. And Atikah's recording of their performance is just super Jjang! I'll post it up soon.

Okay, I'm off to work now. BYE! :D

Sing Along for Me, Baby.

2010-03-09T23:29:00.002+08:00

Working in a child care center can make one - okay, actually uh... me, fat. Seriously. During breakfast, I eat with the kids. Whatever leftovers Auntie cooked, she shoved it to me plus she made milk for me. Yes, milk - as in the powdered ones tt little kids drink. During lunch, I eat whatever Auntie cooked and since my workplace is near a Korean store, grocery store, fruit stall, occasionally, I'd get some light tidbits to munch on. It gets bored when the kids are sleeping and I have nothing to do but to eat. During tea break, once again, whatever leftovers there are, I put them in my mouth.

-_________________-" How?

Oh oh oh, a few days away till SHINee arrives in SG, again. SEXCITTTED!

Minho, Minho... I love you...
Yes you know, I really do...
And I know you love me too,
So I sing this for you... ^^

*gets punched* whaaat~ the kids kept singing this song just now and it got stuck in my head. I only changed the lyrics to Minho's name. Cute whaat~ :P

In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

Just Remember

2010-03-07T22:47:00.003+08:00

i breathe, i love and i have dreams.
just bear in mind, i'm a human with feelings.

Forgive Me

2010-03-06T23:42:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling cranky and emotions are running wild - which equals to PMS mode. So I hope no one irritates me or piss me off for this couple of days. I can't help it if I were to suddenly get angry - PMS does crazy things to me, sadly.

I miss spazzing, drooling and posting about this awesome boy.

Please forgive me - forgive me for being immature, Not loving you is only an excuse so that it's easier for you to leave me.
Please forgive me, I wish I can selfishly have all of you. Let me endure your loneliness in exchange for you to have a better life.

I've loved, I've hated, I've cried, I've even laughed and I felt the vulnerability in your kisses when in fact I was more vulnerable than anyone.

Forgive me, I must continue to pretend that our love was a mistake. Don't let time rewind, I'm afraid it will make it harder for me to speak.
Forgive me, for not giving you an explaination but my heart aches. Without asking for anything else, please completely forget about me

Love... should be willing to let go.

Randomly, I'm posting up a Chinese song - just because Kyuhyun sang it beautifully despite the few cracks here and there. Okay, bye. I want to continue watching The Departed.

2010-03-05T21:31:00.000+08:00

I've not been updating my blog regularly. Not that it matters. Well anyway, TGIF people. :) I really need the weekends now. The kids are draining out my energy. It was easy to get along with them but 8 hours of running after them, screaming, laughing, asking them to sit and listen and etc - it totally drained every ounce of energy that's in me.

I don't really have favourite students cos all of them are adorable little thangs but Veronica, Intan, Cherilyn and Reanne are closer to me. The first person Veronica looks for when she wakes up from her afternoon nap is me. Its unbelievable how easy it was for her to accept me since I'm new. Changing diapers and bathing the kids seems like a pretty tough job but honestly, it's easy once you get the hang out it. :) And trying to make them sleep is one job that needs alot of patience. I had to keep my eyes WIDE OPEN so that I myself won't fall asleep. Pfft.

Oh! SHINee is having their 1st Album Showcase at IMM on 14 March. As much as it's a good news to us SG Shawols, I'm still having a phobia due to the last fansign back in January. The pushing, the screaming, the waiting, the frustration - I wouldn't want to go through that again, once is enough. Hur~ for the fact that I know some SG Shawols are just rough, pushy and unbelievably rude.

Just beat in mind: don't stalk them, don't grab their hands, don't get over-excited and start to grope them.

That was what happened when they were in SG last month and I'm totally displeased by how some fans reacted at the airport while they boys were going back to Korea. PERSONAL SPACE - get that in your head, pls.

Now, I'm freeeeaaaking tired. My back is aching, my feet are sore.

KYU CUT HIS HAIR! ^^

2010-03-02T22:52:00.003+08:00

This post will be KPOP Spazzing. Click the X button if you don't wish to read.

ZOMGWTH, KYUHYUN FINALLY CUT HIS POODLE CURLS! I've not been online for a couple of hours and tada, I got a surprise when I reached home. Heh. It made my day. :)

HI HANDSOME!

My wish came true. I've always wanted to see him with this hairstyle. :) And now, I'm just waiting for Minho to cut his damn hair. I'll be the most happiest girl.

favourite part? 2:18 - 2:32.

Okay, I'm off. Effing sleepy - BYE.

beautiful liar

2010-03-01T22:08:00.002+08:00

Summary of my Sunday.

Out with 1st Brother and Mum - went to a Korean grocery shop and bought ingredients to cook Ddukbokki. Headed to Bugis, LG Lollipop roadshow and I got for myself a RED Lollipop phone. Brother treated us to Sakura International Buffet and I ate until I felt like exploding. But I love the LG Roadshow the most - they were playing Sorry Sorry, Super Girl and Abracadabra. :)

Booking of Canon EOS 50D with 70-200mm f4 lens - confirmed. Waiting to collect on the 12th.

Ahh, I need to sleep early starting today. My eyes were nearly closing while watching my kids sleep just now. Meh. And don't expect me to update everyday, I'm too lazy. Tags? I'll reply somehow. So sorrry~

SHINee babies, it's March already. When's your flight to Singapore? And dear Onew, Lion + Mermaid is NOT a Meg Ryan or a Medusa okay, darling? Silly.

Weekends Over~

2010-02-28T13:31:00.002+08:00

I had fun with the SC clique yesterday though I had to admit, yesterday wasn't a good day for me. Series of unfortunate events happened, so yeah, I was pretty cranky after I got home last night.

Sally already collected the tickets for the event on 13 March. I'm happy and I can't wait - it's less than two weeks! Though IDK if I'm able to catch a glimpse of them at the airport again.

Most probably, I'll be renting a Canon EOS 500D with a 70-200mm f4 lens. I did some research and consulted some of my photography friends. I took a look at the lens and my mouth went wide open.

Holy crap, the lens itself weighs nearly one kilogram! Hell no am I gonna hold it throughout SHINee's performance. So uh, a tripod would be good, eh? Hur. My hands were already tired being the photographer for Azhar's event yesterday.

I'm scared for tmr. Being scared is only human, right? Right.

AMIGO feat Just Dance

2010-02-26T21:01:00.004+08:00

So many things to do tmr: collect Medical Report, go to ITE CE, go to Key Point, catch up session. Bam. I've yet to take a passport photo for my course - don't freaking ask me why they need a photo of me, IDK. =.=

And this boy, he's conquering both my Tumblr and Twitter background. Go have a look. I just can't resist his adorable charm.

TBH, the only song that I like by Lady Gaga is Just Dance so when I found the remix of this song with one of SHINee's, I can't help but to go "ZOMG-ing~"

Hyukjae Oppa, get well soon. And seriously, fangirls need to chill~ he'll recover from Swine Flu just like how Onew, Jonghyun and Taemin did. D'oh.

each day seems like a year

2010-02-25T22:09:00.005+08:00

As above... :)

I'm glad Nazri kept his promise of calling after his exams ended. Being at home makes me a pig; all I did was eat and sleep. I miss my girls, so pls meet up soon. This coming Sunday, I want to try and bake. I'm updating random stuffs because I feel like to.

And I want to gobble up this boy and his 5 gorgeous daddies.

Every second feels like you would come back
Like I could turn around and see you

We'll miss you, Jay. ♥

River Flows in You

2010-02-24T20:56:00.004+08:00

Do you believe me if I were to tell you that I'm turning twenty?

Today's a good day. I had a catch up session with SueSue and had a blast laughing our hearts out. This is what happens when we don't meet up often cos once we do, we'll be talking non-stop. :) Throughout these seven years of friendship, she's one of the precious ones who could really understand me well. Who cares even if she calls me an alien? ^^^ Thanks for the meetup, TomatoSue! Let's do this again. Heh.

I was dying of happiness while watching Hello Baby Ep 6 just now cos half of the episode was filmed in Singapore. I can't imagine how it'd be like if Hello Baby ends. Oh and just so you know, most of my KPOP spazzing are moved to Tumblr. :)

(credits: ohatoms@tumblr)

And according to this person above, Lion + Mermaid = Merlion.
Oh Onew... why so precious? ♥

In My Room

2010-02-22T22:56:00.001+08:00

I close my eyes in this sleepless night
and you dance in my thoughts...

A picture of you I found in a box, under a layer of dust.
A love letter filled with my young heart and everything of you...

Cos you were my sun, the moon -
You were my everything and everything in my room seems to miss you.
Our hidden memories still linger cos you're still in my room...

No particular reason, I just love this song.

I love you, Jung Yoogeun.

2010-02-21T23:31:00.003+08:00

HOW CAN A 27 MONTHS OLD BOY STEAL A HEART OF A 20 YEAR OLD GIRL?

His little giggle at 00:16 and 1:10 is just... *heart melts* And I swear I heard him say "Noona~" at ard 00:55.

Tell me again how can I not fall in love with this boy even if all he sings is
%$^$*%*!#%#^&(&!^$@#^&!@@(*&$#? - a language that one can't understand.

A potential 6th member of SHINee? ^^

Spin That Record, Babe.

2010-02-19T23:49:00.007+08:00

I miss them already. ):

So that's it. I won't be seeing them any longer. Sigh. They're not even my flesh and blood but I love them so much. I hope they'll grow up to become nice kids. ♥

I'm pissed. My mother's ex-boss is creating much trouble. Just because my mother left his school and got a good offer at another school, that irritating ex-boss of hers decides to stir up some problems. That old man is lucky that I wasn't posted to his school during the last few weeks of my working days or I'd shoved my pretty vocabulary in his face. Even if I'm still working and if I'm scheduled to be there, I couldn't care less if I get fired from work if I were to ever step up to him to give a piece of my mind.

Such people need to learn how to respect others and their decisions.

I think I'd be away for the whole day tmr. Mother wants to go JB~ hopefully I'd be back in SG in time so that I could meet the girls at Nadd's boyfr- pit. And Myraaaaa, I'm gonna pelukciumsepaktrajang you if we're meeting next week. :D

If only they don't mind being my husband and son for a day. ♥

It's amusing to know that Korean Idols listen to Lady Gaga too. ^^

so sicccck~

2010-02-17T21:48:00.002+08:00

This was when we had a date with Dry Chicken Noodles. :)
And why is there two ~~ugly~~ hearts there? Ah, I realised Netizens nowadays are making a big fuss out of small little things like showing The Finger, kissing, hugging etc etc. C'mon people, get a life. Sheesh.

I'm in love with that LG Lollipop phone after playing ard with it at one of the LG shops just now. I'm thinking of getting one but the only available colour is pink and blue. Hur, sucks much. Why didn't they unlock the black and red one in SG? I know~ Lollipop over an iPhone? I must be crazy.

Hello Baby Ep 5 (w/o subs) is out. IDK why but my heart was aching so much (in a gd way) while watching this scene. Key finally came back after missing one episode and you can see how much these two missed each other.

KEY: Yoogeunie, did you miss Key Appa?
Yoogeun: Yes...
KEY: How much did you miss me?
Yoogeun: *throws arms up* thiiiiis much.

Oh so precious. ♥

Tmr is my last day at work. I hope... I won't cry. ;_;

[a cover by Jonghyun & Onew. (:]

Oh Oh Oh Oh~

2010-02-16T21:19:00.003+08:00

I must be out of my mind but somehow, I can just see the similarities between these two.
Or maybe I love Dex too much. -____-"

Ngyehh~ this song has been repeating in my head for hours. Annoyingly addictive but it's nothing like Gee. The first time I watched this video, my reaction was, "WTF is this song?!" I was irritated by the "Oh Oh Oh" and "Ah Ah Ah". Pretty much annoying like "Ring Ding Dong" but urgh, now I'm addicted to it. Hur~ And Seohyun (00:26) is so preeeettty. I like her. <3

Oh Oh Oh Oppa I love you...

So cheesy please. (:

another day gone just like that

2010-02-15T23:12:00.003+08:00

How one can be so beautiful, I don't understand.

Today passed by veeeerrry fast. I slept at 3am yesterday, only waking up at 8am to transfer the converted videos to my PSP and switched off my laptop, watched HB til 9am and then continued with my sleep. I woke up at 2pm. I know, what a pig. And right now, it's alrdy nearing 12am. -__-"

Oh, I've decided not to get the iPhone. I already have my PSP for games and videos, MP3 for my music, a hp that is in good working condition so... having an iPhone is a lil redundant. Hur, I'm weird like that.

My SpoiltBrat was rawwkking that stage yesterday. :D It's nice to see people commenting on how well he danced yesterday and that it was surprising to see how much he improved. Now... who said he can't dance? *glares*

And and and, I love love love this!

Hell yeaaaah~ RDD Rock Remix. :D

Ring Ding Dong, you little annoying song~

those beautiful stories

2010-02-15T00:27:00.005+08:00

I want to get married and have pretty little babies like the one above. ^

My V'Day was great. I spent it at home watching my favourite boys over and over again. That is better than receiving 100 stalks of roses. :) And to end of 14th Feb happily, Super Junior won the MBC Star Battle Dance. Congrats boys! Kyuhyun's dancing skill is pure win. (search for the link at YT, too sleepy to post it up on my blog)

Those beautiful stories that we wrote together and the eternal promises of staying together forever that we prayed at that moment - they are all coming back to me now and I don't think my heart can take it. I've even restrained myself at the thought of you. - One Year Later

No matter how many countless times I'm listening to this, Onew's voice still sends shivers down my spine.

Nowadays, IMYs don't work on me anymore.

Random Update #1

2010-02-13T21:55:00.002+08:00

Looooong holiday, yes? Be happy! :D

Mother randomly asked if I wanted an iPhone. One of my brother's friend is selling off his iPhone at a low price and that paying by installments is allowed. ZOMG, so tempting please? But I have absolutely no idea on how to jailbreak an iPhone, how to use an iPhone or how to go abt exploring. I'm not one who really immersed myself with the latest technology through handphones. Yes, I'm kental I know. And the fact that I dislike touchscreens.

But I love that Tap-Tap game. ^^ I shall see how it goes, just waiting for my brother to get back to SG.

There's a huge possibilty that I'm renting a DSLR for the 13th March event. I'm gonna be far away from the stage and Herlena won't help much. Meh, fangirling is a tiring and expensive job. -.-"

Can I please have this boy as my son?

Okay, I'm off to watch Hello Baby - the subs are out! *cries in happiness*
Good bye.

p/s: Happy CNY to all my chinese friends who are celebrating. <3

Now and Forever

2010-02-12T23:46:00.003+08:00

"her ego is as big as her breasts." - Nana (:
I literally translate this from Malay to English. Super hilarious phrase of the day, imo.

I had a Good Friday.

I dreamt abt Onew (don't ask me why) and woke up with an idiotic smile. I met my favourite ladies for lunch over at our old campus - bitching, talking, laughing, loving and such. It felt great to be laughing until you're almost out of breathe. Vibration mode~

I keep thinking that I'm still 17 - I forgot that my Helix piercing is almost 5 years long now. Gah.

My 2nd brother went to KL this morning. He asked me along but I refused - plainly because his friends are all guys and that I'm trying to save up on cash. So meh~ byebye KL. I hope he'll be safe over there and come back to SG in one piece. ♥

"Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand - Now and Forever, I will be your man..." gave me goosebumps. Who cares if his voice squeaked at the very last moment? He still sounds beautiful.

Dubu Dubu~

Let's Bring It Back

2010-02-11T22:18:00.004+08:00

Yoogeun, I love you more than I love your Appas. ♥

I cried while thinking about the kids just now aft I reached home. I'm left with only a week more. No, scratch that - there's a long holiday due to CNY and that means... only three days left. The way little Javier clinged onto me just now was just... sigh. And Jayden Lim, how am I gonna leave that boy and his brother when I've grown too attached to them?

People might think: "What's the big deal? They're only kids." It's thanks to those kids I'm living my life happily now. They gave me a whole new meaning to life. If you don't understand, then I suggest you STFU. Thank you.

This is harder than I thought. *heart breaks*

There's nothing left to say, don't waste another day
Just you and me tonight, everything will be okay
If it's alright with you then it's alright with me
Baby let's take this time, let's make new memories

Who said I don't listen to English songs? -___-"

p/s: meeting my favourite ladies tmr. :)

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something for my beloved Limin. ♥
gah, i miss this boy.

I love Wednesdays :)

2010-02-10T21:23:00.006+08:00

*waves* HI~!

First of all, congrats to these two cuties for graduating from High School today. Key & Minho ♥
How hard it is to balance sch work and Idol life, I don't ever want to imagine. And when did sch uniform ever look so dashing on guys? Sometimes I wish SG sch uniforms are like this (blazers and ties) but the weather... -_-"

So, anyway... I stayed home the whole day today. I slept at almost 3am yesternight trying to figure out how to use Tumblr and tada, I'm a happy girl already. :) So if you have a Tumblr account, follow me if you want to. (though mostly my post would be nothing but spazzing)

Hello Baby Episode 4 is out! :D Hell yes, I love Wednesdays. The subbed version will be out in a few days time but I could understand a few words here and there and grasp the idea of whatintheworld they're talking about. I so love this episode - Yoogeun throwing a tantrum at the salon, refusing to get his hair cut and then waking up the SHINee boys.

Yoogeun: *shake shake* Appa…
Onew: zZzZz…
Yoogeun: Appa… *kiss kiss*
Onew: zZzZz…
Yoogeun: -fed up alrdy cos Onew refuse to wake up-
APPPPPAAAAAAA~!!!!!

I love the way Yoogeun shouted "APPPP-PAAAAAA~!" while trying to wake the boys up. Minho and Yoogeun's smile at the beginning of the clip totally killed me. Yoogeun's way of waking up Taemin? SLAP HIM. :D I love this kid so much! Heh. I may be Minho-biased but my favourite part of this clip would be whereby Yoogeun was waking Onew up - or at least, he tried to. Poor kid, he lost his temper because Onew refuse to wake up.

*squishes Yoogeun*

And before I end my post, a very big Happy Birthday to Siwon SJ and Sooyoung SNSD. :D SM-Town family is love.

all time favourite love-song :) i wish Jonghyun would do a cover on this.

For lunch tmr, I want to eat LJS - diedie I want LJS. Okay, random. Bye!

Drifting Away

2010-02-09T23:29:00.003+08:00

Okay so... I'm feeling a lil blue today. Counting down to my last day of work and it's a lil bit depressing.

Among all, I will definitely miss these kids the most. It was heartbreaking to say our goodbyes just now. They may get on my nerves at times but they are still such adorable darlings. Life would be a whole lot different not seeing them every Tuesday.

I hate goodbyes. I hate farewells. And definitely, I hate separating from the ones I love. Yknow the feeling... it's like breaking up with someone. *inserts alot of sad faces*

And I'm feeling a lil bit... weird. I don't know why but my heart was thumping so fast when this person's face appeared in my head. Maybe it was the power of an eye contact - I don't know. I'm one who can't really have eye contact with anyone unless if I'm very comfortable with that person. In summary, I'm kinda sensitive to eye-contacts and it will drive me crazy - honestly.

When I had this sudden eye contact with this certain someone, it felt like as if a thousand bolts went through my whole body. Sounds exaggerating, right? I know. But the feeling is just... indescribable. It's been a while since I felt that "thousand bolts" feeling. It's like it happened in a matter of abt only 2 secs and it's driving me nuts.

Ah, nvm. I'm spouting nonsense, ignore me.

Broken promises shattered to the ground,
the yesterday that can't be pieced together again,
and yet...i'm still waiting for a miracle to appear.

Happy Birthday, Hangeng Gege. 我愛你, so please come back to SJ - we're waiting.
WTH, my chinese is a fail. T_T

Monday Blues... Not.

2010-02-08T23:09:00.003+08:00

*inserts alooooot of idiotic smiles*

SHINee is coming back to Singapore again in March! :D I think, I hope. Well, that's what the person in charge of the Singapore Entertainment Awards emailed back to one of the Shawols. But nevertheless, we (Sally and I) alrdy purchased our tickets just to secure a place.

And ZOMG, the MOSHPIT tickets are sold out within a few minutes of me browsing through the SISTIC website. Amazing. I hope FT Island and Brown Eyed Girls will be there, then it'd be aweeeesome! :) Yes, I know... here comes the KPOP craze again. If you have a problem with me liking KPOP bands, screw yourself.

I hate bus 31 in the morning. Seriously. No matter how early I'm out from my house to wait for the bus, I'll end up 10 mins late for work, thanks to the traffic jam near Marine Parade. Hur. Frigging irritating, please.

Yoogeun ah~ stop kissing Minho Appa.
~~(i'm jealous of tt 3 yr old kid)~~

But look into my eyes, what is it telling you?
Noona, you're so pretty~ ♥

Will tmr be my last day to see my beloved Dex? ):

p/s: I'm sorry Sweetheart, here's a heads up. I'm turning 20, not 2 years old. I'm no longer that girl who will always cater to your needs or fall for your words. At this point, it's time I stand up for myself.

For Me and You

2010-02-06T22:08:00.004+08:00

Me with my weird obsession over colourful bands. :D And yea, I got bangs but I don't really like them.

Stay home Saturday - I don't feel like going out. Furthermore, there's no where to go. I woke up with a weird dream today. I was at this beautiful beach with someone (I have no idea who) and that we were there for a holiday or honeymoon. I could only remember we were on a boat and that the sand was soft, the water was clear blue. Who that person is, I honestly don't know. Hur~

I love it when Koreans sing or talk in English - they sound very... adorable, in a way. :D But with them singing this song, can the English language be any more sexier?

This is embarrasing to tell but I went "KYAAAAAHHH~" when Minho looked into the camera at 2:22. *blush*

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you can adore

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

Jonghyun reminds me of Kamsani in a way - like how they know that they're gifted with a pleasant voice but yet, they are so humble. I love Onew's pronounciation of "Adore" - it's just so adorable! Key? I don't have to say anything - that diva-boy is just perfect! :)

And this is for all those who always comment that Minho can't sing - IN YOUR FACE PEOPLE! Hah! Stupid SM, let that boy sing instead of always rapping for once. *glares*

Come, let's all fall in love and be merry~ (ignore me, I'm spouting nonsense) ^^

*bounce around*

One Less Lonely Girl

2010-02-05T19:44:00.006+08:00

This is honestly uneditted. I played around with Herlena's settings and this was what I got.

I stayed home today - all I did was Facebook, Twitter, SFI, SJ-World, Stomp, Youtube, Tumblr and I managed to finish up Nad's request for a Sungmin blogskin. Meh, I hope she likes it though since its been a while since I touched Adobe Photoshop.

I'm getting pretty cranky this week and I'm sure I'll be more cranky in the next following days. Not to mention the gulping of alot of water and craving for weird food, I guess Miss Little Red Riding Hood is paying a visit in a few days time. So yeah, I'm the lucky few who gets PMS right before period - please forgive me if I ever snap at you in the days to come. Hur.

Bloghopping through Tumblr is fun. :) And I so love Tumblrers for posting cute pictures of Yoogeun. I swear that kid will have his own international fanclub soon with the number of hearts this little boy managed to win.

So effing adorable please? Can I like go to Korea and kidnap this boy or something? *gets punched*

Oh dear Sfineee, please hurry with the subbed episode three of Hello Baby. We're patiently waiting to spazz like crazy.

ZOMG, when I heard this on the radio, I thought it was a girl who was singing. But this is such a suhweet song, I almost cringed while reading the lyrics. :)

Don't need these other pretty faces like I need you
And when you're mine in the world,
there's gonna be one less lonely girl...

I'm gonna put you first, I'll show you what you're worth
If you let me inside your world. there's gonna be one less lonely girl...

Yes, new blogskin. Just because I am Mentel binte Miang. :D
I'm craving for Banana Fritters.

As the World Keeps Spinning Round

2010-02-04T21:30:00.003+08:00

Oh, TGIF tmr. Which means it's only a day away from the weekends but fortunately for me, my weekends start early - I've got no work tmr. Most probably, I'll just sit at home and rot. It's scary how fast time travels - tmr is already another Friday and just last Friday, I got to see the SHINee boys but it feels like it was just yesterday.

Azura Babygirl is currently unwell. Me and the other girls got a text msg from her late last night at around 4am, saying that she misses us alot. Awww, kiter pong rindu awak bnyk2. :) Have a fast recovery and then we'll meet up soon okay? Or we'll serbu your house again and then watch Power Rangers. XD Lots of loveeee~

Cotton On is having a sale and I was nearly going bonkers - going from one branch to another. And yes, I've been spending a lil cash on a Cotton On spree for the past two days but seriously, the total amount doesnt even exceed $20. I save best while shopping. Heh.

Meh, Hello Baby Episode 3 has not been subbed yet. Hopefully, it gets subbed by tmr - or I'd be bored to death at home with nothing to do.

Isn't he just so precious?!
Can my future babies be as cute as Yoogeun, Dex or Jayden Lim please?

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend :)

Day by day, it gets harder to be away from the kids. I'm so afraid I would cry.
Yes, I am a crybaby.